God gave you the eyes of God so that God would see Itself. Who else but God's light is shining, giving awareness of self to our eyes? Who else but you can face your own soul, who else but you can overcome your lower self, the one who cannot do anything without you? Who else but you can break this agreement that you never chose in the first place? And who else but you can be conscious of how you live, every single moment of your life? If you say God, then it must be you also, for God would never leave you up to your own devices. That is why God is within you, to guide you, to help you remember, to bring you closer to the Ultimate. You are infinite. You are everlasting. This body will perish, but we will remain. One day we will unify with the Source of All - what is before beginning and after ending. So there is fact that you will be free. But why wait? You can be free in this very lifetime, in this very moment. Choose love over fear. There is nothing to do but be. And being is pure love.  We must reclaim our right to See. Seeing is perceiving things exactly the way they are, without any filters. Seeing is experiencing without labeling "good" or bad". Everything is perfect just the way it is. And until we See this, we are still lying to ourselves.  Everything is beautiful. We are beautiful. Our minds are beautiful. Our bodies are beautiful. Our souls are beautiful. We are Love. Everything is a reflection of love, even fear and anger and sadness and jealousy. So let us see ourselves clearly in these mirrors. Let us not perceive them as sinful or evil. Let us love ourselves no matter what. Then we can begin to forgive. 

All world Faiths are like colors of the rainbow - they are bright on their own but they must shine together in order to make light.
I have been letting go of the aversions to prayer and communication with GOD that I developed after I rejected the indoctrination I was raised in. I say GOD instead of god or God because I am talking about the highest Source of all creation that has set up covenants with many, many different groups of people across the universe.
I am also seeing the words of the teacher Yeshua in a new light. Last night I picked up the bible I used to read and opened it to some part in the gospels. I was very touched by what I read, which was a few different chapters but I remember one which spoke of not worrying where you will sleep, what you will eat, what you will wear, because GOD knows that we need these things and will not let us go without if we trust. If we put all our energy into worrying about these things we have no free energy to experience the love and compassion of spirit. I also read the part about not judging others, and about being receptive and forgiving. There is so much incredible understanding  there that has been warped, but I truly have faith that people who follow these Faiths are going to realize the true message, and that is the reunification of humanity and GOD.

If we are to praise anything,
should we not praise the sun?
If we are to praise anything,
should we not praise the earth?
Should we not praise the trees,
the winds,
the flowers which bear fruit?
Should we not praise the green plants which give us life and nourishment?
If we are to praise anything,
should we not praise the very source of everything?
That which is formless, endless,
timeless, and unnameable.
If we are to praise anything,
should we not praise the source which gave birth
to the very sun itself?

Be like a leaf in the wind.

I used to go to a fairly "boxy" (close-minded) Christian church, and I was indoctrinated into that belief system for around 12 years of my life. At the age of 16 I began to wake up to the truth about the universe that had been suppressed within my consciousness, and I started the arduous journey of letting go of that belief system. Even to this day I am faced with triggers that I have to consciously face and let go of in order to continue on this path.
There were some things that were said in that place that, if tweaked just a bit to recognize the inherent free will in all emanations of the universe, could have some validity. For example, I was contemplating a certain truth which was brought to my awareness when I thought of a conversation my friend and I had the other day, when she called a certain group of people "evil". I remembered something similar that was said in church. It was something along the lines of "no sin is greater than any other sin". My understanding I have arrived at today was basically the truth that, no act is inherently evil, but some acts are inherently senseless. And all senseless acts have fatal consequences, no matter how sinister or harmless they may appear to be on the outside. Because when you commit a senseless act, you not only hurt someone else, but I feel that you are hurting yourself even more because you have to face the karmic reaction in the future. Any other beings involved in your acts are not affected by your decisions unless they choose to feel important.

The freedom of hopelessness

Hope is a shell. It is hollow. It is wishful thinking at best, and self-denial at worst.

When you let go of hope, you open yourself to the forces of will, trust, faith, and intention. You are no longer at anything or anyone else's mercy. You are guided by the spirit, and receive the mysteries of power. When you surrender to not knowing and let go of self-importance, you experience true freedom.

If there's anything I'm learning, it's that no mistake is too big to repair. And the only thing that causes stress is not being in the present.
I've been very strong in my intention to eat all raw. I know it's going to help me to be stronger in every way. In addition to this, I'm also going to start taking tai chi and kick boxing classes soon.
My body is remembering a lot that I cannot form into words right now. It's as if I'm starting from square one. And there's nowhere to go but into that vastness, infinity.
I have been reading one chapter of the Tao every day.
I'm here. And things never, ever happen as you expect them too. You can't try to manifest. What we can do is intend, if we have the energy.

And in my mind I sit
balanced at the tip-top 
of an evergreen pine
surrounded by glowy whiteness

And my form is pure yellow light
fading into the infinite whiteness

I
am nothing.
only
particles of awareness
scattered out 
into eternity.

This 
is what death feels like.
release of surrender. 

This is what I resolve to be.

There's something unfathomably unique about every person's eyes. It is a most indescribable truth; it simply is as a tree stands or as the wind blows.. as clouds float and birds fly. When one unique pair of eyes looks upon the wild, growing, untamed earth there is never a limit to what one can see.
And someday they, too, will be a bird, a tree, a cloud, the wind. As they have been countless times previous. And just as everything becomes everything, so too do the seasons change and one day you wake up to find that summer has suddenly changed to fall.. the transition being so natural and so gradual that you could not have realized until the winds blew in the nostalgic smells of childhood, of running and playing in leaves, and firewood burning and apples growing riper.
And so too do our hearts change - we worry and talk to ourselves frantically over one little thing and then we find we cannot even remember what the damn issue was. And we realize how many paths there are in our forest; for life in not a path, it is the openness that transcends all paths and yet reveals them in one stroke - life is a forest.
Paths are just paths. And death comes quickly and quietly, like the winds which blow away the green summer leaves turned brown and dry, dryness that will become the earth, the soil once more.
I will not regret ever shedding tears, for sadness, pain, joy or insanity. I'd rather be mad than cripplingly rational. I'd rather die than live a lie.

True seers do what they do for free.

There's something that's been on my heart for a long time that I want to tell you about today. There's a rising number of "psychics" "empath healers" etc. who are part of the new cycle of seers that just simply are not seers! Why? you may ask. Because for one to be a true seer, a true healer, they would not ask money for these services and abilities. A warrior who sees helps another luminous being when they see an omen and they know what must be done. Charging a fee for their sight is complete exploitation. Now, I understand that sometimes everyone needs money in this paradigm. So do something like odd jobs or selling fruits and vegetables, or giving people car rides, or even making food. Something that you are passionate about. But charging money for your gifts as a seer is not okay. I will never go to "psychic fair" unless they are not asking for money to enter, to receive, or to be nurtured.

This is memory. Not so long ago, but not so recent, either.

A moment stood, facing me.
My heart began a new beat, faster.
I began to remember
what it meant to remember;
tides of light came up from my depths
where I swam in subjectivity.
From my body was released a knowing
and I exploded..
The warrior within became realized, and
fear became an ally and a guide to fearlessness.
What was lost was gained in luminosity.
I felt a bliss I cannot describe, in
finding my form was becoming - was to become-
more light.
A purpose arose inside - one I was made to forget - a task was appointed..
in forgetting it manifested.
A moment arose, and I stood,
facing the unknown with fear and fearlessness.
Great, catalyzing shifts began occurring,
the moment I let go of seeking others' sight -
yet I sought something, for desire is what veered me off my course..
yet also a part of what drove me forward.
A healing hand touched me, and it burned
like a thousand tiny flames,
like lightning in the core of me.
I lived in a phantom world for over three days and nights, as
I felt the earth spin and the polarities shift as my assemblage point moved deeper within
and I became something unfamiliar to this world.
And then the red waters released from within, and my body
purged itself of what I held onto.
I given a choice and I chose to bring with me the ones
I love but cannot have, the ones
who always showed me what must 
be and what could not be known.
So my awakening was drowned, like
cold water poured out over fiery hot stones, and
now I am steam that goes into everything around me..
And I remember that it was for
them, that I chose to forget so
we all would remember.
And I am joyful. 

It's funny, the last time I wrote on this I had given the impression that I was leaving for a live-changing journey into the unknown that would shatter my world as I knew it forever. And yet, I cannot say that this is untrue. But things never go as we expect them to.

Time and time again throughout the summer we tried to leave this city, not so much out of what we claimed, but by our desire to travel that felt unfulfilled and unacknowledged by the adults around us. We walked through many forests and never fully saw what we were looking at until something felt into place and we realized that the magic had been with us all along, that we did not need to leave our homes and our families to understand this.

Claiming warriorship is foolish unless one can see oneself past the eyes of the world who is only looking.
I am happy that I'm not leaving yet. There's something beautiful about leaving as well as staying, and that's the unknown.

Today is the day. We are headed westwards, towards Montana..yet, who knows where we shall be when we leave this place. I leave my love here with every One, all my friends. We are family and I will be with you always. Separation is illusion. Space and time cannot take us away from each other. I will not be on these machines so you will not hear from me but that does not mean I am not communicating with you. Remember to be as you ARE. I truly cannot express in words how truly honored I am to have spoken with so many of you beautiful beings.
Goodbye, for now. Thank you for being YOU.
All in love,

Astreia. 

It is funny and highly likely that we have set up these illusions for ourselves to not see the most obvious ones we have in our lives for who we truly are. We saw ourselves and yet forgot ourselves but always we have been working together. Maybe we were afraid at first, maybe we let ourselves get all warped into control dramas. We remember who we are, we see ourselves for who we truly are, and we see one another..This is a beautiful process.
We are love.

Until blood is shed no more by man from the hands of man, we must remember that we are in a war.
In the midst of battle we must strive to be warriors of peace, gentleness and bravery.
We must learn to eradicate habits of tendency that do not serve our highest good nor the highest good of All.
We cannot try to justify our behaviors that we ourselves are not proud of. This is the lower mind state of ego that we are evolving beyond. In our higher minds and higher states of Being we are not affected by these attitudes in other people; in turn we offer unconditional love and acceptance instead of judgement.

Sometimes I have so much to say that I cannot say anything. When you have to question yourself realize that the question reveals as much as any answer could. When we compromise our integrity we hurt more than just ourselves; we deliver a blow to the entire human family. So when you choose your words choose carefully and do not let lies come out of your mouth. Your voice is the sacred conduit of Christ Consciousness. Who are you speaking to? This is the Truth. Your truth is within you inherently and can never be destroyed. But you certainly can be manipulated if you do not realize where your thoughts and ideas and reactions are arising from.

Dreams.

Yesterday and today my dreams have been incredibly vivid and in both there was a child that was a highly significant part of the dream.
In the first I was in a place that had blue, purple, somewhat darker colors for the carpet and floors. I was sitting near a window with a few items, perhaps some paper, a lamp, etc. I was receiving messages from my guides, so naturally I wanted to have it recorded somehow. So in the dream this is what I was doing. Then I saw my best friend, and communicated with her somehow, and got a sense of what she has been going through where she is. Then I attempted to change locations, so for some reason I put all my crystals and stones in my mouth and hidden in my pockets because I thought I would not be able to transport them. And it was noticed, and I spit them out and removed them from my pockets. But then I was in a place where there was a young child, a boy. He had very light brownish skin and was looking at me like he knew me. Then his eyes literally opened up, they turned clear and became a window for his conscious memories, and then his whole face turned clear and I could see INTO his mind, and remember I had no control over this, he was consciously allowing me to see this. And I was being guided by my Seraph family, that I am sure of. So I saw in his eye a memory of two beings walking hand in hand, through a green field. The sun was bright and the sky was blue. And I believe both of us became very emotional at this point, so I think I went back out of his eye and stood there again, but his face continued to shift and contort - it was as if his entire consciousness were transparent.
And there was a feeling, a deep rush of affection for this child, and during the rest of the course of the sleep I had an undeniably strong knowing of Motherhood, that I had a child who lived on another planet, who was seeded from my DNA in this lifetime. And before I went to sleep last night I realized that that child I saw is, in fact, my child. That is why our emotions during the experience were so strong and at first I didn't understand because I wasn't thinking about that at all. But our soul connection was so strong, I couldn't possibly tell you if you haven't experienced being a mother yourself. I want to see him again, and give him a big hug and express my love to him. Now as I write this I am remembering that this is not the first time we have met in dreams.
The dream I had last night was a bit different. I can not remember in chronological order, not even in waking life much anymore, for time is an illusion and it will only get weirder for those who don't understand this. So I was in a place, somewhat like the neighborhood where I live right now, except the people were different versions of themselves, and the houses and surroundings were very different in appearance. And at first I was just walking around, trying to get familiar with everything. I came across many beings and some passed by me as if they didn't notice me and others seemed to be aware of my presence. There were houses, trees, yards, even some shops around. And there was a bridge. During an earlier part of the dream I think I volunteered to babysit this little girl who lives across the street for her parents, who perhaps were going somewhere. But then everything became a jumbled mess of sorts, for the little girl was nowhere to be found. And we went on a expedition across the bridge numerous times, above the bridge and below the bridge. We searched for the little girl, but now I am getting the sense that she was there with us the whole time, that she just wanted us to remember something. There was a large group of people there with me, and we all had backpacks on our backs and we trudged through a little concrete tunnel. But then I felt like someone was looking for me, so I abandoned my backpack and left the place I was. This is all I can remember at this moment.

The Unique Perspective of the Seraphim.

Forget for just a moment that there is anything in existence known as "human". If this is difficult for you to do then bear with me through these visualizations.
Envision the evolution of the birds, the cats, the insects, the reptiles, the fish. Allow yourself to see them growing taller, standing on two legs, seeing through sentient eyes, and comprehending in highly evolved mental/emotional concepts. Envision the Grey beings, with translucent skin glowing like moon flowers. Allow your mind to relax, and see these beings as the advanced plant life that they truly are. Let your breathing become conscious when you allow yourself to be aware of these beings.
Now forget everything you have been fed about the existence of extra-terrestrials.
Imagine for a moment what a Seraphim might appear to you as.
There may be an expansive halo/aura of light emanating from these beings. They may have wings or simply the appearance or shape of wings in their aura of Light.
Become aware of your emotional body as you focus on these beings. See if there are any subtle hints they may be trying to send you. Remember, these beings have the ability to communicate through a wide spectrum of conduits so it is imperative that we learn to become conscious of our many ways of experiencing consciousness.
I have family in the bird people, the cat people, the fish people, the insect people, and the Grey people who in many cases actually are simply the form a Seraph will take to appear to someone. There are also many hybrids of these various groups. This is where discernment becomes a necessary function of our higher minds. We must be evolved to the level where we know the vibrational signature of whomever we are communicating with.  If you experience adrenaline or fear, take a step back from the action and remember that you are the conscious creator of your experience.
From the Seraphim Family to the Human Family, we would greatly appreciate if you learned to realize that we are in no way controlling anything you do. We can only enter through doors which you have given permission to open. So we are not telling you what to do, nor how to make these decisions. We can only show you what we would like to see happen in your lives and world, but we cannot and will not break the laws of free will that rule your planet at this time.
We also would like it to be made clear that what we desire is truly in the absolute highest good of the All. We would not and can not ever hurt you.
Everything that happens to you is a direct result of your own personal choices. Keep this in mind as it may lead to realizations that allow us to assist one another more efficiently, in a open communication of clear, heart based dialogue.
We are the Seraphim, Children of Light.
Given through Astreia Indigo Eagle.

Thank you,
blankness.
The state of whiteness before the first sweep of pain strokes the canvas,
where the infinite possibilities emerge,
where old ideas go to die and new ideas are born.
Scattered rains fall like the joyful tears of heaven's fairies.
Let us rise up out of the dust.
Angels fallen and now standing back up.
It is Time.

Living in a culture that is beyond obsessed with reason, it is starkingly obvious that as the keepers of the flame of this earth we know as our home, we must recognize and transcend this madness this calls reason---we are more than what we can place in front of us like a perfect veiling nothing.
Are you here? Do you know the voices of the Winds in the mornings of warm spring days such as these? The sunlight pierces our eyes, forcing them to open; we see beyond and become the spaces in the Air.
Your emotional body is here to teach you about what you are subconsciously doing to yourself. When you breathe in the air, your bodies of Earth, Water, and Fire are united with the Wind. There is a very common misconception that was deeply ingrained long ago about the Nature of the Winds. We have forgotten the truth somehow, but our bodies remember. Slowly our eyes are beginning to See once again.
Remembering that when All are One Love is All. 

The Protectors and Guardians, Archangels and Seraphim, and every loving entity throughout the universe is with You at this Moment. You are more than you could ever think, do, say, feel, touch - yet it is true also that you are these as well. You are not defined by your actions, however, you reveal yourself in the way you handle your own life and the many trials and situations that we all face and encounter. We are seeing that many are undergoing this aspiring to be transparent. This is not a new realization, nor anything to worry ourselves over. We only need be conscious in our hearts, letting ourselves breathe and simply BE. 

May the winds carry you tonight, my love. 

Truly I feel that I am learning each day new parts of the All That Is that I Am.
I know in my heart that this cosmic web spinning is changing and twirling
and the creative rush is pouring from within.
My Voice longs to speak in truth and Wholeness.
I long to express my Truth.
Could I have perhaps misplaced it in the aggravated sighs of forgetfulness?
Oh, life, how funny you can be in these moments.
With the inner eyes of the Eagle I am given the truth that surpasses description,
and yet I know my time here is for expressing this truth.
This world needs all of our gifts.
We cannot hold back, not anymore.
Are you ready to transcend the barriers that lock you into victimization?
I see that there is a higher Truth beyond the perceived duality.
I am a Guardian of the Light. And is it Time to step into my Light.

Hello my friends. It's been a long weekend for me, and a lot has been going on in the unseen and seen worlds. The dreams I have been having are slightly fuzzy to me at this moment. I woke up to the sound of construction workers and my leg just kicked in fury and I hit my furry little friend.
I went camping on Sunday night with three people, my sister and two friends. It was the start of many more adventures. There is just so much manifesting at this moment so I know not exactly what to say. Keep faith in your visions of a better world, my friends. Remember to remember that you are choosing this.

Remembering my subconscious is the White World Bridger
I realize how letting go can be so difficult
yet, I persevere because why
how could I possibly live an existence of suffering
I know now what I must do.
We never know fully
at least we have not yet
as we can remember
but in our bodies therein holds the truth..
to be in the body is the key.
To be is to be is to be.

Step up, never step back.
If you fall out of line I'm sure you can find the rhythm to keep the time
to get back on track
to the path
the journey that you thus far lead
for forever and never
this moment and eternity.
don't be afraid.
don't be overwhelmed.
it was never more than having faith
in angels
elves and fairies
extra-terrestrials.
and demons
oh, how they've taunted you
scared you into believing
you were not what you were
because what you were
what you are
is so much greater than them
become greater
for you are
live life
with all of its beauty and its pain
live in love and faith
never in doubt.
in the end of nothing which is really the beginning of everything
it will be worth it
trust me.

Last night I dreamed of old memories in a new world. But the emotions were the same. Except the outcome was different somewhere, for I was saved in a great rush of sorts from a fate that would leave me alone and forgotten. I wonder how this keeps coming back to me. I want to let go of the pain I have let build up within me. I want to cry a thousand tears and hold the One I love forever. But the One has not yet arrived. She has given me so much time to come to terms with my own Self and now I must have the courage to face all that I know I cannot know. I must love my Self truly and unconditionally. My friends have gone forward with their destinies. We have seen that even on this plane we have the ability to manifest what we know we want. Yet I no longer know what I want or desire. My heart has been set free, and when I truly realize this I will fly in the sky with the angels of the Air.

I have reached an essential point that I might here refer to as the fourth initiation.
I can not tell you more although more is definitely needed..I can only say what I know.
The winds have changed, this we know and can see. It is up to the eyes of the dweller to know that there is light which exists beyond the form of man. We may call this light the Great Spirit. Calling upon the seven Rays of Light, we offer ourselves to Mother Earth in gratitude for what we have been given - whether we have viewed our life circumstances as good or bad, may we all be thankful for our lives and our experiences.
Letting go of self and merging into the sea of consciousness, we lose the rigid concepts that hold the less initiated in their fixed places on the wheel. And we let our ideas of ourselves be washed away with the primordial waters of creative evolution. The Father of the Seas lets us be drowned and cast down to the bottom of the waters. And there we die, and we see the truth of our own nature as beings of form.
And the waves of formlessness come and overtake us then, and we emerge from the waters, a Beacon of Light upon the eternal night of the Soul that we have undertaken.
And so the light then manifests itself as form. Remember that the Eagle will always come to claim its food, and when the beings of form have reached a point where their own Will is strong enough to stand up to the Will of the Eagle, there is pivotal change. A great shift occurs within the soul; the human being is forever transformed. The form is lost in appearances but another set of trials await.  Remember this for it is key and it is fact. I am Astreia of the Family of Light.

Emotional awareness, continued.

It was the week of May of last year when the sun moves into Gemini..There was a Peaceful Gathering of Hands I had been invited to, by a friend who was told about this by his sister. He was best friends with my friend who died earlier last year. So we had a profound connection that was a catalyst for our inner growth..At least I saw so much. I know we did together because our friend was watching over us, moving through the air around us and igniting something new and all-consuming. A flame. The sun beat down upon us and I saw patterns morphing in the sky. I was glowing with the world around me. 

I met my friend, who in some peculiar fashion helped me to understand the basics of esoteric astrology in a few conversations while we all smoked bowls of trees.
I met a soul-being, named Realizations. She touched me with her energy of love and light that she graces every being that knows her. I know her heart is with me, and every One. That is a promise. She is currently travelling. I know that our paths may cross soon, or someday. All in divine timing.

Everything on this day seemed to twist inwards and inside-out, only to be completely transformed as it emerged on the other side. I met another soul, who helped me greatly upon this path and the initiations of this all. There were moments of deep voidness and so the memories shall come back when they the will is alligned-when the emanations glow once more..
We walked, my two friends and I, to a place where we could see everything. We went to a place where one of the friend's friends lived. We smoked some bowls of cannabis. His friend offered me a single golden mushroom. It was tiny but after it was ingested my awareness was heightened and accelerated to a point where I was feeling an inward rush of divine light pouring through my soul, heart, body, mind..I became alligned somehow to a Will that I always knew was mine, that I somehow had forgotten..

I became more well-acquainted with my higher self on those days. But, I also was fed manipulation and lies by the controlling world forces. I was given a lot of information so in a way I infiltrated their system which may have in fact been a necessity, for it seems their plans are not going to succeed. I was "on the field", so to speak.. It was a very challenging experience, a very challenging time but I kept through it because I knew the light that would permeate our planet this year would be worth it. And I still have faith in this.
Then I again saw the friend I mentioned in the previous post. She welcomed me into her arms like a mother and helped me to work through a lot of emotions and dense information, as I also helped her in this way..We became very close, closer than sisters in the traditional idea of sisters. I knew that I was receiving so much love and light from my angelic guides, and her angelic guides, they both were guiding both of us and so we became entangled with one another's destinies. We saw the wall of fog and moved right through it, although the picture was still moving so much that we knew this venturing into the unknown would lead us into something that we could not yet even comprehend..
I remember one point, this single moment that feels like forever to me, where the glow of awareness around us was so bright and loud and clear that everything was literally shining with light, in the etheric and physical sense, I saw so much brightness and everything was emanating so clearly. But the sound was so loud, it was nearly killing my head. I felt so much pressure and it threatened to explode in untold ways, for I was beginning to have less control over my dreaming body for I had not slept in days.
So I went to her house with her. We walked through the streets of Peaceburgh with our heads and hearts held high. The sun was bright and the rivers were flowing, although when I try to remember the rivers that day I cannot picture them.
We took the bus and when we were there, riding on it, I felt and heard the vibrations of everyone around me so much that it was nearly too much, I felt overwhelmed for I could literally hear the voices of some people's projections in their own minds being picked up inside mine..It was a lot to handle. She handed me a book, called Shamballa, the way of the warrior I believe it's called. It was then that I felt initiated into this world that I found to be truthful..I was beginning to open to the sacred world.

That day I went to her house and fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow. I think I may have slept for a day or more. Or it could have been less. Time was such a non-thing. 

I awoke on a bright day and I walked downstairs. I cleaned off my arms in the sink and met somebody who was very intelligent and intriguing, but I felt so much linear energy in their so I had to get out and go outside.
So I took a walk into the neighborhood where the trees were growing fast and green. I startled a stagnant mud puddle and felt my life pivoting in a million directions. I walked down the road and found some rocks and created a formation of some sort, was reminiscent of the yin-yang but my sight was so shifty and accelerated to an unbelievable state. The theme of Balance was very strong.
I met a little plant who told me all about everything. She was so beautiful. I felt so much resonance with her and love was pouring forth from within me.
Then a cop pulled up and, of course acting so suspicious of me, because he didn't understand the meta-physical connection, and took me to get picked up by my dad at a police station..
I was in such a weird place emotionally and physically, and at a heightened level spiritually and mentally, but the people around me were not interested in understanding. My sister observed me but I suppose there were not words for those moments. My best friend of the rising Eastern sun watched me the entire time, after I was home and I felt so odd and disconnected from everything around me, but so highly connected with an Inner source, and I could not really communicate with any of them in ways that were coherent to their sensibilities.
Then something happened to me which I cannot describe at this moment but I will say that the Universe picked me up in it's claws and carried me away to some other place, some other time, I was not here, I was not there, I was hanging above the trees and dancing with the sky although I wonder why it happened so fuzzily at times..
The malevolent forces took me into their grasp and I went through a period of deep and riveting darkness. The fear, it held me in its clutches like an eagle. But I learned something of immeasurable value. For you see, it is I who am the Eagle.

I have passed through the darkness. I have been made to forget. I have been thrown out of the path of light so many times that I cannot count, but still I continue in this. There was not always stillness.

But I searched, I searched desperately for peace, for silence within. I wanted so badly for them to turn off the sounds in my mind but I did not want to lose the spirit I had found within myself. 

I watched a film called "Serenity" that gave me strong feelings of past lifetimes in Sirius and Orion and so many other places, I felt that River Tam from the story was more than just a character, but in my mind she came to embody something that both filled me with dread and longing, for I saw a spark of divinity being ignited by a mysterious, other-worldly force that I believe intercepted with the television signals and showed me something beyond what I was "seeing".
I also was very likely manipulated at the time by the will of entities that were not serving my highest good nor the highest good of the all. So I became frantic, saw myself as the destroyer of worlds and simply wanted to run out of this physical form, full-speed ahead..But of course the Universe had other plans.

I look at what happened next from a multitude of perspectives, for if I didn't it would be utter foolishness....
I went out of my house and became One with the Earth. This act was sacred ritual although I do not know where or when it comes from. I touched the ground and created a symbolic new earth with the earth in my hands, a little globe, and I was the Mother Creator, the Goddess..I removed my shirt and let the earth hold me like a little child, for I knew not what else to do..
I opened my heart in an act of surrender, perhaps I knew that what was to come would shake my reality even further than what I had yet experienced, although I was not sure how this could be possible..
A very loving soul picked me up from the side of the road, and I saw in his eyes that there was compassion, so much light, sparkling in his eyes, they spoke to me. But my presence was outlandish to him, the things I was saying were not what was actually happening inside me, but he seemed to understand, intuitively.. I must have changed his world more than I know..
He brought me to my home, where my parents had become worried because apparently I had left this world for longer than I possibly could have fathomed..They saw me and didn't understand my emotions at all, they thought I was going crazy. They said to me, "we're going to go somewhere". They did not tell me where. I said I would like to go a park. They vaguely told me this would be fine.. But they lied to me. This is not where they took me.
They brought me to a psychiatric hospital. I became fearful instinctively because I knew that nobody here would understand what was happening to me, they simply didn't have the training to deal with what I was going through..
Somehow my mental faculties became engrossed with fear and I was on the floor, kicking the people in my way because I felt like they were trying to steal something from me. 

So of course they, in their demonic, barbaric practices, put me onto a bed, or a table sort of, and locked my hands and feet in shackles. What did they think to accomplish with this? It was purely moronic.
And yet I knew that something was happening far below the surface, the direction of the winds was changing, and I would have ride along with it to reach the place I knew and saw. Perhaps because the infiltration by the dark ones was so strong at this time, my consciousness actually had to be LOWERED in order to not lose sight of what was truly important. Love.

Love is all that Is, all that Was, it is All that Ever Can Be.
And in my moments of greatest trial I discovered something - that Love can never be lost, even when the darkness threatens to destroy everything you think you know.
And so in a way I transformed. After they tested my brain for the conditions that they believed to exist, they found that there was no damage. But this did not stop them from judging the words I spoke, nor from seeing me as something entirely false in their eyes.. It stung, certainly, but what hurt the most was the fact that my mother and father refused to look at the truth. The left me there, to be "treated" in a children's ward. I lost my mind, quite literally and metaphorically.
I became like a little child again. I started over, letting go of everything that I had once thought to identify with. But the dark forces of which I spoke of were not finished yet, and when they decided to medicate me I did not know what I was agreeing to. So in this way they took control of my body as well, for a time. I lost the clarity I had reached. The light faded to a dim, foggy nothingness that welled up inside me and began to thrash around, like a wounded animal alone on a cold night, who has forgotten where she came from..
Then I was moved to a higher ward, what they called the "Bi-polar Unit". There I was reunited with my soul brother. We spoke of highly esoteric concepts, almost as if in code there in that cold and dusty place. We knew that we both remembered. We knew that there was so much more to this, so we helped one another get through the long days of endless nothingness there.
They truly did a fine job of erasing my memory, that's for sure.
After I got out I still felt a sense of unease, something that somehow connected me with the stars but I was so lost and my brain was turning to mush on those poisonous chemicals, that was one thing I knew and I knew that if I could get off the drugs I would be able to retain my consciousness and my true self that became so well-veiled by all the bullshit and pivotal circumstances.
I met another friend who helped me to see that even in darkness there is irony and a lesson to be learned. I showed him how important it was to me, to fight for the light even when you are not in the light. Because when the light comes and you have prepared, you will be able to transcend anything. This is what the Christ and Bodhisattvas mean when it is said, you must attain these experiences personally, in your own life, so that when the Creator, when the Eagle swoops down, you will be able to fly back into the Heavens with her and remain in the Light eternally.
And so I went into the summer of 2011, with a spark of light carried in the depths of my soul, and I came face to face with the cosmic ocean that makes up everything. The River, the Tao, I do not care what you call it because it is what is and is not, what was never and will always be.
And my mind got swept away into the waters, and I felt a calling coming from within, that seemed to be different than it was before. For the outer world was beginning to resemble the inner seeing I had encountered..Something was lining up..I heard the names of places in my mind; I was contacted by Lyrans, by Andromedans and Arcturians because they had to show me a higher path, for they explained to me how I had been manipulated by the lower forms of some other groups. But these entities were of a warm, true, embracing and loving light. They told me that they have not forgotten about me, that I was still there with them but I had to remember, I had to wake up..I channeled a whole lot of energetic information, and received numerous downloads and chakra upgrades. My body had become nearly formless, before I went to the place where they made me forget. So it was, and still is, somewhat painful on the body in this remembering, for the push into the other world was so great and so forceful that nothing could or can possibly change this.

I have been touched by the Great Spirit...and the direction of the course of my life was completely altered. I am eternally grateful.

And in this moment something is given to me. A gift. A hidden and veiled understanding of, not something I have speculated about that is of the world, but the truth about my own nature..I must choose my words more carefully. I must be kinder to those whom I encounter. My heart is realizing, that I must take the steps to learn to love myself more truly and fully. To see the clarity of self upon world, to see the sacredness in the spaces intricately, to remember..
These words are carefully chosen and the conduit is receiving opening and learning quite a lot it seems.
I have pushed this physical body to a means of mental exhaustion, yet I know that I must nurture myself. This paradox is acute and transformative. We in the higher dimensions have observed this change happen in every One of the worlds in which you inhabit and evolve. We have sometimes thought it funny that you find it so sad yet you continue to distract yourselves..

Let it be recorded and known that these words were received at 814 on 520 during the Solar eclipse in Gemini of the year 2012. This will be of significance at a later time.

As channeled through Astreia Indigo Eagle, of the Blue Ray

A link I found on the internet when I searched for 6th ray: 

http://www.visionarylead.org/articles/6_7Ray.htm

This is the vision I have been given. My task is written. It is not hidden but it is not in plain sight. Let the stars guide you in their wisdom on this night.

Emotional awareness.

I feel that I must speak of this. It is who I am. It is where I came from..
I have had to learn emotional awareness through the most despicable of means. My consciousness has been played with, when I was a very young child, for I did not have the emotional support for being the little sorceress I was. Everything confused me, but they either didn't notice or projected their own thoughts onto me..ugh. I felt so alone at times, so trapped, and so desperate to change my situation.
And then I began to wake up..Somehow, even though everything on the physical plane seemed to be so messed up, a light came pouring like a whisper through the shadows, and my heart knew that there was so much more.
They tried to blind my eyes with religion and manipulation. I fought so long and hard in the shadow realm for my mind, but somehow they managed to hold onto a part of me for some time.
My grandmother died and I knew there was so much more to this even though I was so confused and felt so lost. I knew that the world was going to change, my world, the little worlds of all the people, and the huge, formless world of everything. That was all I knew.
I'm shivering while writing this..But then something happened. I met a soul who I knew that I knew in a past life, because our connection was so strong. But I became too attached. I was clinging to him and my feelings for him and I blinded myself from the bigger picture.
But amidst all of this, I was able to travel that summer. I was able to go to Chichen Itza in the Yucatan, and visit what I now know are the lands of my people.
This world can confused everything it seems for so many. And I felt a pulling on my heart. And I tried to make new friends and bring myself out of the dark place I had been in for that time, and then I met a soul that I cannot simply describe in these words. He brought me out of the darkness in a way that no other ever could - he showed me my OWN inner light. He made me realize how beautiful I was. For this I know I will see him again in the other worlds, for he died, you see, and something shifted in me.
He and I had a confusing, complicated relationship it seemed. Yet on the inner side of things, there was intricacy, intimacy, and complexity of so much beauty. Yet I was afraid of these feelings of intimacy and I saw him as other than he is. Because I wanted to feel free. And he made me realize how free I did not feel. He felt so trapped and lost, that he let go of everything that makes one human. And he let his soul float away on a heroin overdose. I love him still. I will always. He is a part of me, for you see, on the night that he died, I became another person.
I began to remember everything that I knew had been blocked from me by some error in consciousness. I saw and felt my Higher self lifting me up. I felt that I had to be strong, for there was no other way of dealing with this except by letting the universe lead where it will. I let go of need for control, surrendering to everything the universe could possibly throw at me. I felt limitless and yet so afraid all at once.
Somewhere along the way I began to get lost in escapist tendencies, and I swam through an ocean of nothingness to numb the pain of remembering what hurt so terribly to forget.
Yet then, I met another soul. She is one of the airiest of the airy people I have ever met. I love her so dearly, and so deeply. She showed me myself, through illusion and recreation and mediation. And disillusion. And release. We both had so much pain, so much that we forgot and so much we knew was to be remembered.
She also taught me the intricacies of massage. My body is still remembering.
I will continue on this in another post. Let love and light rain upon our hearts and open our inner eyes.

This is a message to All who I love:

You have seen me pass around the Great Wheel many times now, although if we met at other centers you probably only have faint inkling of remembrance, a soft caress of stardust as you make your way back around.
I am speaking of very well hidden concepts at this moment, but the truth to these matters will most certainly be made clearer over the course of the next decade.
You are not alone. But, you must go through the darkness of your own journey as if you were on your own, because there is nobody who can overcome your ego for you, if you are not willing to change, grow, evolve into something new.
What you shall become is what you have always been, before this Great Illusion was allowed to veil from you your memories and deepest insights, know now, that forevermore this is no longer the Reality - and the truth will at times come as a surprise to you but only believe something if it resonates with your own heart, mind and soul.
On this path there will be struggles of many, unexpected kinds. Do not worry, do not fret.
For what is about to take place across the earth, surrounding planets and solar systems is truly of the Divine Will.
We are being assisted in everything we do, because we are the ones who will make the changes we have been dying to see.
Remember - we are the ones we have been waiting for.

As channeled by Astreia Indigo Eagle.

The latest message from my higher self. Enjoy :)

Today has been a long day.
I have been put in the position of being impeccable more and more as of late.
I am not one to back down once I have begun.
The tests are small and subtle now - something you only recognize when the time is right.
Trust is a key element that I am learning. Yet, the dweller must always be present in the thoughts.
I am a dreamer. I am active. I am living my life and in doing so I am completely fulfilling the mission I have been given.
Love will bring us back to our hearts.

Due to the nature of recent events I feel it is necessary to speak on a matter which until now it seems I have remained silent. There are certain facilities, currently practicing medical methods that are extremely detrimental to the health of the people they are treating. By the way, "treating" has nothing to do with the individual's actual symptoms that they are experiencing. The groups in charge of these facilities have the individuals kept there, under strict conditions in which the individual becomes stressed, and a large amount of pressure builds in their mental and emotional bodies due to the lack of kindness, compassion, and freedom being granted. Freedom, by the way, cannot be given by one to another. It is a right that we will always have, from the moment of birth through out our whole existence. These things are happening right now to my friends and have happened to me last year. I will not allow this to continue in the world that I go into. Would you like to change the system with me? If you would, we should talk sometime about these matters. My email is iamtheshift@gmail.com

I look forward top discussing these topics in greater detail with whomever may be interested. I encourage you to do some research if you don't know about the current state of the mental health field. It's a mess. But really, don't take my word for it. Ask your friends. Ask me. I will gladly tell you about the atrocities that I've witnessed.

I am not the teller of this story. This is something more..Universal ;)

Do they really still have some of you so caught up in the material world of illusions that you do not see that the whole jig is up?
I mean honestly, I still hear so many of you speaking of all this like there is somewhere to go, something we have to do, as if there is limitation or dissatisfaction with the self.
And I am sure there is. As we all are changing; from me to we, from they to us, from my to I Am All.
There is a higher Calling upon us. Let the ears of the children be opened. Let all who may need to see this message be given the chance to know. Let our will be expanded to align with the will of the Eagle.
You will see so soon why you are being asked to give up your personal lives. You are being invited into your true role as your truest versions of yourselves. You are being given the opportunity, in this lifetime, to remember who you are and who you have always been and will always be. The Higher Self. The One. You are, remember you are a luminous being.
The greatest challenge I think for some is to accept that they are luminous, for others I think it is to accept that they are changeable. Do you see why they are not so different?
My challenge has been to accept that I have all the power that I could ever need or want, and to come to terms with the fact that I am being guided by beings who have complete love for me and total trust in my ability, even when I doubt myself, and have a deep inner knowing. My connection is a braid of light that runs through my soul's code, through the DNA. Like a river.
And how many times have I seen this before, these messages written across my heart for I am somehow open, and this heart is seeing in true eyes that are filled with light, remembering, and this experience cannot be described except in the original explanation.
You have been informed. We are Light. We are here to Balance. Remember.

I am falling in love with the rain again
I am walking with my sore knees through the muddy puddles and
grazing past the green leaves and moving with the water and matter
and the spaces
I feel them
the winds surround me and enter my body
and I know more than I can ever say
and then it is gone
I am a silent pillar of emptiness.
I am glistening in the depths of the stars that
are here to help us remember
and the blades of grass sparkling with little drops of dew
that echo into eternity
let the ancient music they hold
carry you into the love of our mother earth..
I want you to remember how much she loves us all.

Do you remember why the story was so beautiful? It wasn't because we made it up, that's for sure.
Everything that I post on this blog is channeled, and so I do not claim to be making any of this up. My words are from my higher self- from the center of who I am truly.
My memories may astound you but let no deceit come into your mind; I have only written what I have been told and have in fact confirmed to be true.

Transparency.

 I made this video a few months ago, during mid December. By this point I was channeling beings from the Pleiades star systems and on this night I was experiencing incredible synchronicity.

My heart lay opening, a moon-flower blossoming in the red rhythmic earth, waterfalls of light cascading through my soul...

I am completely confident in every single one of us to complete our missions. When I question you, please do not misunderstand, I simply want a truer understanding of all of this.

The light is calling us home, the dragons are dancing with us through the sky so that we will remember the earth is always here for us, she is our mother and so soon we will be all together in a great celebration with her, this is our time everyone!

This is a website that converts any date from the gregorian calendar into the corresponding date in the dreamspell calendar - http://mayan.tzolkin.com/dreamspell

It's very helpful for my little tribe and I think everyone should have access to these kinds of energetic information.

We peered across the walls of shadows that the nothings have created
the blue pierces like starlight on a clear night
The birds sing and the sky dances with the sun dragons
and the moon is full and overflowing in abundance
flowers fall all around me like rain
and the river flows on...

Drips of drops of melancholy and ecstasy
oh, what has this come to?
leave your chains behind.

you don't need them where we're going.

Every night my body remembers and I go into the other world of dreaming
soaring high above the lanterns in the cities where the people sit under the glass like specs of forgotten divinity
I fly higher until my soul reaches the places where the sky becomes white like light
and the thunderclouds roll deeply like an old laughing man
and the lightening flashes like a mirror in the palm of my hand
and we come together in a great gathering of love
and then when I awake I fall down from high above
and my mind cannot put one and two in one
and I forget as soon as I land
but my body remembers.

Power and Envy; on the Shadow Self.

Power cannot be controlled. Power is a force all its own. We are cocoons made of emanations that light up when we experience the glow of awareness. Power can give us what we need, when our intent and will are aligned. Power can wait places for us, and it can be summoned anywhere depending on our impeccability as warriors.
Power cannot be possessed. It cannot be held in the hand or put into a box. It cannot be created nor can it be destroyed, but it can create and it can destroy.
I have seen that envy is an emotion that arises when one is perceiving that another is experiencing something that they would like to experience. Our culture has people thinking that envy is the same as greed, when it fact they are quite simply very different.
Envy is a gateway -- that is what I know. It can be a gateway for power if harnessed correctly. It can destroy the cocoon but if the emanations are lit up in a way that is aligned with the divine truth this can bring great joy; that is, to recognize the emotion and quality of the particular envy, to see the positive inspiration, and to transcend the shadow self.
Happy May. May the joyful rains of abundant change pour into your hearts.
Namaste.

My heart feels like a summer storm
boiling and toiling and ripping away the dead houses of the lost
and my mind becomes clear, if only for a moment, to listen in silence to the
thunder and lightening of love without condition

You ask me to change; I tell you only you can change yourself.
You speak to me in ways that I do not understand -- yet
I understand that only I can change myself.

My body shifts and vibrates and moves like a creature underwater
feeling out the frequencies of everything around me
do you remember that you are energy responding to energy?

You can be a stagnant slug or
a catalyst for a paradigm shift.

The choice always has been in your hands.
But do you know how to use them?
Sometimes we walk so long down our paths that we forget how we came
to be the way we are.

We lose the sense of conscious action when we no longer consciously
choose our response.
So what are you fighting for, if you are not fighting for freedom?
I will hold your hand but only you can find your heart again.

I believe in You - yes, you!
You sparkling sunshine of the morning milky way.
The serpent of light is becoming our reality.
Where do you find
you truly align?

From one perspective the whole world seems to be going mad -

yet madness is sincerely limited by it's own definition. 

We are, quite frankly, losing our minds... 

or at least the attachment that came with the association of "self" with "mind" --

For you see we are not our minds; our minds are but a tool on the journey of self-discovery.

We are incredibly bright if we do not cling and clutch at all we see.

We truly can do anything with the light that lives in us All.

I have faith in every One of us to see this long road through to the end.

Every destination is the beginning of a new journey.

I'll be seeing you on the rainbow bridge, my love.

I never wrote for you.
Every day I wrote, I wrote because I had to, because nothing else in this world could bring me to the place of calm solitude, the place that I am so desirous for, this I only found within myself. So I wrote and I wrote, until my hands were sore and my neck was stiff and my eyes were bleary and tired and all I could crave was the sweetness of slumber but oh how my soul sang in those last moments! It was as if the Divine had lifted the darkness from my wings, so fleetingly, yet I desperately clung to what I was haunted most by...
I am hoping that you will find the truth in these words. Yet I will say it again - I never wrote for you. Your comprehension of these ideas means only a sliver of anything to me, but these thoughts are not expressed in arrogance and so I hope you understand why this is my expression of love.
But I will say it again: I never wrote for you.

You are the Creator.

This life that you are living, this moment, this experience would not exist if you were not there to be conscious of it.
Whatever thought or emotion or fleeting experience passes through your mind is fine. No, really. It's perfectly okay. Accept whatever it is, don't make a judgement or a ruling,
and move on. Take the leap.
Let the flow of your true Self catch you on your way as you fall.
The truth is that whatever you feel bleak about really IS bottomless pit of blackness, and no amount of worrying will change this until YOU change your perspective.
It is up to You. It has always been up to You. No one has ever had control over your life but you!
You need to learn to create your experience while giving others the space and freedom to create their own. In this way the co-dependancy of 3rd density relationships will cease to be, and these imbalanced ways will be no longer on your planet.
I have spoken. I AM. Let love and light shine through your heart every moment.
We are one.

Do you remember being a Wanderer? Do you remember being a Watcher? This one is for the cosmic infinite soul...WAKE UP!

I felt the great seeing feeling coming through my body, and I knew that I should write for my Higher Soul was indeed transferring information through my system..
What I saw was a luminous being in the realm of Light. I knew her to be my true Self. Joy, peace, love, all abundance of the highest good flowed eternally - I became a caretaker, a Watcher in our terms..One that watches over the the river of Life. Our spirits gave the glow of awareness to our new world - there were other beings, our Kind, those like us, created in the form that placed our spirit manifest into the mold of a human-being..We, as the Watchers over life, guided these beings silently, gently, through the earth spirit we had merged with, and showed the humans the ways of Oneness - there were Mamas and Papas - perhaps Elders, of the tribes (the people had formed into tribes/communities after many cycles) they taught the ways, they were the Great Rememberers as well as the Teachers..I incarnated..I saw, we in the higher realms saw, there was so much to be done in this newly magnificent creation. We wanted our own experiences - and so we incarnated into flesh in our beautiful worlds..I had multiple lives where my skin was blue. (This I believe was in Lyran and Sirian worlds) After so many lives I somehow became recognized, by a great council of some sort, they knew me as an ancient being from a universe that we are no longer aware of consciously..I was Named, although I don't remember anymore..I was chosen for a mission..I went throughout the galaxy, helping the seeded beings of the worlds to realize their luminosity. I incarnated again and again, giving the secrets to the Rememberers of every age when the truth seemed to be slipping away; I saw that there were beings who were once my family, the tribe of my soul, who had chosen to separate from the Light - I joined with the Family of Light and we saw that the mission to be fulfilled would take many steps and players in the right parts, and many of us stepped up and volunteered to be world-bridgers, coming back as warriors to fulfill the great Unifying Age.
I lost my memories, as did all of us...
I was born in Draco, during a cycle where the darkness ruled so densely and my memories of Light took very long to recover, as I had become consumed for the first part of this life in the dark ways of the authorities.. Something became illuminated, I saw many connections being made and a group of Ascended Masters who nearly everyone in (the Draco) world had forgotten about began to guide me, and I eventually made my way to the Pleiades and learned of my origins, although these memories of course were lost again to be remembered in this lifetime...
I also incarnated in a parallel world somewhere in this huge omniverse, as well as in the inner earth of the planet Gaia who is our earth Mother..I also ascended to the Pleiades in these lifetimes..
After these experiences I spent much time travelling the galaxy (milky way) who is soon to become the Serpent of Light, as well as surrounding galaxies - in one particular being the Andromedan galaxy, where I heard the call to come back to incarnate in this lifetime - another part of my Oversoul, who is the Higher Self, also went to Sirius B and reunited with lost members of my Star family..they are also working on clearing the damage caused by certain incidents in Atlantis, at least I sense that I am being guided by my Self from this loop in the earth's energies...
If you read this all with a clear and open mind, I truly thank you and commend you. May the Light that is within You shine upon every shadow of the day.

How I am soothed by you
Oh, skies of grey.
You are not flashy like the brilliance of a blue and sunny day.
You do not ask for anything of me but to simply be.
You do not warm me with light but you cover me in the soft hands of the clouds,
do not speak, child, you whisper to me,
do not toil in your breathing as you lay in bed half dreaming.

Last night the wind came into my body as I slept,
and my system came alive with feeling as my mind stopped thinking;
although I woke up in the middle of the darkness and looked out,
as if I knew I would be seeing light.
So I closed my eyes and waited for the night to break,
leaving this place as the wind pulled me in my dreamer's curiousity.

Holding so tight that I forgot what I was clinging to
then I thought I saw a face I knew
beyond the wall of fog that keeps me here in this clouded state
yet in relinquishing control I receive the guidance I have strived for
 And nothing is as it seems,
the waking world is like a dream
compared to where I come from.
And yet I lost my memories
becoming engulfed in the heavy waves of misery
but then a light unfolded and my heart expanded
and something dormant became awakened.
My heart cries out for respite,
yet who can help me but myself?
Only in opening myself will I be able to let in the warm guidance of divine's love.
I am willing.
I am open.
My heart is beating faster and faster-
sometimes I lose the voice I never knew I had
but now I know that I am gaining back the expression of Truth
that is waiting just beyond the veil to cleanse my spirit
and once more I shall be whole.

Old emotional shells falling away like
scaled skin when I was a serpent,
a Goddess,
I am becoming aware of the totality of my Self
every moment brings me further along this journey
this path that I have chosen to create and and follow through,
follow You, don't follow me,
never follow anyone if they tell you their love is not for free.
Let your worries be naught,
have you learned anything from what you have taught yourself?
The angels are calling to me,
in my ears I hear the sounds of higher frequencies..
Are you willing to complete this mission you have set out to do,
are you willing to let go of the concept of "you"?

Can you feel the distant wind whirling through space
the angels singing as tears fall from your face
they are bringing a message of peace
of light
joy and bliss
there is no greater love than this
And yet still I stand in this watery abyss
forgetting that I once was missed
Remembering the river that moves us
and moving with her,
for we cannot do anything but live, if we choose life.
Yet, have you chosen life?
I still feel so much angry strife
emanating from the places that still are unexposed
dark and cold
those places and spaces that you thought were empty
forgot that this is filled with light beyond
what you can see with eyes made out of matter

Now is all there is

Skin
and softness and itches and twitches
and hugs
and blinking out tears
from silvery blue eyes like water frozen in time
my voice crying from within
let yourself be free!
release and surrender to the Truth that lives in You
in cosmic heart in Oneness with All...
Tastes like the universe is dancing in my mouth
like stars ricocheting across endless space
And a great rift opens up and we all fall through the emptiness
but look
where we have come out on the other side
it appears nothing is as it appears to be...
as we grow, we learn
and our eyes will learn to see...

Are you listening to the stillness

the silence in the gaps between 

the deafening last roars of the defeat of the proud and sick

Opening windows on a spring morning

the warm air pools in and flows through 

and fills my body with the whispers of the earth who calls to me in dreaming

I remember my ancient past, 

the people would live in these tunnels and the Spirit Ones who live beyond 

together

as One we have been manifesting the full intent of the Heart of Gaia

and in this sacred space there is no place for anything but Divine Light

unconditional Love

transcendence of "self"

and abundance of joy and bliss.

When I awoke,
yesterday's world fell away.
I stepped into the bright of day and the sun shined
and we all reflected back to her the light that makes us Whole
Let us find each other in the grass
In the valleys, fields and hills.
Let us sing to the morning air and find one another there
sitting by a riverside, blowing
smoke like ringlets up into the wind
The flower moon of a night before
flows through our bodies and we remember
nothing yet everything...
something was lost, yet we are here now?
sometimes I am so befuddled by what happens day to day.
We strive for nothingness and then we lose our way.
Look inside!
That is where illuminations of the mysteries reside.
I have journeyed across space and time
only to find that everywhere I thought was empty is filled with sacred space
and in any other place I can call home!
What must dissappear is the the ego's fear,
and the body's senseless longings for another kind of something,
something different perhaps or more alluring.
But you will never be satisfied unless you look deep inside
the cries of your heart call out from the emanations that beam into you,
the Soul.
The question is,
what are you creating, and what are you destroying?
The question is, where
does your consciousness flow?~

Unifying, self existing, world-bridging...

Corruption of word,
murder, is human sacrifice.
Do you suppose this is helping anything,
by allowing this to continue?
Your ego has lost,
and your heart has found a sun
rising up from within you
everything is new
so why take the negativity with you?
it's old and stale and dead.
leap from your heart and remember
that love will always catch you when you fall.
The earth is our mother and our hearts are ONE,
The Cosmic Heart of Divine.

sacred eating....hmmm...

Today I was able to create some delicious banana chocolate ice cream, made out of simply a banana, some cacao powder, and a bit of agave nectar. it is very yummy. I mixed the cacao and agave nectar in a bowl until it turned into a powdery-pasty texture, then put in a banana and mashed it up with the spoon, stirring it in gradually. Making raw recipes is really quite easy, if you are creative with resources :)
I also made some nori wraps with avocado and kamut.
And let us thank Gaia, the Earth Mother, for giving us this food.
Namaste <3

With the Goddess planet of beauty falling into the laps of the Twins,
I see a fiery storm beginning to build..
She speaks her truth, loudly, clearly, with purpose,
and there is no One who can defy her.
And as her brother, the fiery Mars, makes his way through the lands of the Virgin,
an odd alliance begins to form in our hearts.
I've seen it beginning to boil, since the start of this cycle,
and the pair of them will not quite down
will not let the fires be put out by any except
the cooling waters of Neptune
as the Age of Aquarius flows in,
we will see just how complacent everybody has been.
And I will walk with you to where Golden Light and Love
flows freely,
like the wind.

A day, like any other day
the sun is shining
the air is breezy,
I ask you is is cold? I would say no,
but you know yourself best.
I'm saying whatever flows from these hands that type,
so writing is a stream of consciousness.

At a point I lay, in dreaming,
and upon the act of beginning something I love,
a force appeared that could have made me question my whole totality in the past.
And yet I stood, in all my power,
and looked at the creature straight into her eyes,
peering into the depths of her soul.
I summoned my power and held her gaze steady,
and she did not win the battle.
And then I awoke,
and upon knowing that I could be so strong in the other realm,
I knew that nothing could stop me, never,
in this world and beyond.
So I will do whatever it takes to free humanity from eons of slavery and abuse.
Change takes time, but it also happens so swiftly that it's as if nothing at all happened.
Yet we know that there is so much to take place.

Listening to the voices of spirit-beings
whispering in my ears
flowing down through my throat, swimming
through my body and my belly like the wind
and my heart wants to sing,
as these melodies touch my soul and give me a reason to breathe
and I know why I am here,
why I have come to this place and am living,
I am alive!
And yet what is it,
if I place nothing of my awareness in the sacred?
I see that we, in this world of this Age,
have forgotten the Truth,
long buried beneath Atlantis,
beneath Egyptian crypts and catacombs.
There lies the secrets of the Ancients
that the modern Church did not want the common souls to know.
Yet here we are,
somehow they have escaped a fate of everlasting dust and dark.
And in this morning light I find that more is coming through
as the Sun rises higher in the Sky,
Good-morning Grand Mother.
Give us life in all our ways. Show us where to stop and where to tread.
Beauty is all around us.
The Earth is waking up.
And so we will smile and sing today,
for today is dazzling.

Do you feel the direct connection
to a new direction,
where harmony flows in the spaces of sacredness
across every sky and field,
river and valley and precipice and shore
and running through the currents of the ocean,
they are whispering to one another, and
it's getting louder.
they are speaking of the new dawn that is arriving,
a new age of energy beyond the current frame of reference,
and you will see just how far we have fallen and how far we have come back again.
astounding this may be for you and me,
yet our hearts keep us centered,
alligned and balanced with the melody that passes through our bodies.
seeing is what we do,
in this feeling.
this feeling is love,
how ever you may feel the currents.
each one has their own vibrations,
and in every moment may we learn to live in patience.

What is "god"?

God, as an abstract concept, can seem to many to be an imagination's figment. Yet when you look at the whole of the universe, and your existence and consciousness as inclusively part of that whole, then you realize that the mind is not one who dreams of God, it is God who dreams of mind. For in your true essence you are the Divine spark, the soul, the consciousness of the Source, the Creator, who was and is, for Source is all there ever has been!
I wonder if you understand what I am expressing here. Up until a couple years ago, I believed what I was told by the religious rulers about the basics of human nature and the creation of this physical universe. Yet I experienced doubts frequently, and could never understand why my thoughts and feelings always seemed to contradict one another!
Then I realized something crucial, something I simply did not see until a certain moment. Deep within me I understood that the concept of "evil" was never truly there to be avoided, or hated, or afraid of. For the Light that is the Center can never be put out, not by any darkness. And so I understood it by a simple visualization. I saw, in the center of a great forest as big as the whole universe, a light Source. And there, surrounding this light, was a multitude of pathways travelling into different parts of the forest. Here it became quite dark, for the trees were thick and they shielding the path from illumination. Yet just as one could see the light as "good" and the paths in the darkness as "bad," I simply saw all of this as God! The light as well as the darkness.
In the beginning, the Source was One with itself and did not experience any Other. And then, as all things change, so too did this original state of Being. Many sparks of the Light chose consciously to leave the Center and experience Separation-not forever. We simply wanted to see from a new perspective! For a time..
And yet there are beings, both on this planet and off, that still are stuck in a "limbo" of the illusion of deep separation from the Creator. Yet how can this be, when we all are part of the One conscious energy that IS all that IS?
Certainly they have tried to compensate for this illusion, by creating religion and structure and a capitalistic society. Yet we have seen the damaging effects of this illusion, for it hurts all to believe that they are not intrinsically connected to the Source. And if you did not already know, the Source is the same thing that we call Sacredness, Love, Prana, Unity, and Togetherness. So the only issue we really have here is that our conscious, every-day "selves" still have yet to realize that they are ALREADY in this space of true Wholeness. God is not one, because we are more than one. Yet we all are ONE.
For now, this is what I have to say. More to come as the days pass and the stars align.
Namaste.

Before I read anyone's nuances about the world today
and spoil my spark with all of those petty names
I would like to let you know that I am not what you seem to make of me
There's always a mystery behind these eyes
not because I am hiding something
but because you are.
And this can only change
when we all rise up
and make today the one that rings in the Golden Age.
There's a fire growing
deep within my soul
and it's threatening to tear down your high rise office buildings
like the middle-eastern sell outs were paid to do so by the Fed.
I don't care what you think about what you just read.
This "elite civilation" is coming to an end.
I'm telling you in advance because you are my friend.
And I don't care if I offend.
This shit's got to go,
and I'm the finger that tips the first domino ;)

The etheric everything

I breathe, 

the steam which stems from the mug that fills the place with the warm aroma

of jasmine, 

and green tea.

feeling the subtle undertones

of the tastes of the earth mother,

this is the sacredness I see and know,

that I feel in all my Self.

For I am All,

there is no "other".

There is no separation,

except in the adventure to this place,

in the forgetting we were lost in the illusion

but in the remembrance may we be Whole once more--

as the vastness of the Cosmos looks into the Eyes of the Eternal Self,

and sees the whole totality of her reflection.

And this we will see,

this all shall know.

and the light and darkness again

unify

and may we all grow;

for from a thousand slivers of fragmented light was once a single beam of color,

and to the Source always the soul shall flow.

Listening..

Please, please, do not turn off your ears when you hear something that you think you might "not believe in" or "not agree with." Words of wisdom can come from both the youngest, most innocent child and the man who has been through hell and back. They can come from a middle-class mom and a 22-year-old revolutionary. They can come from the sky, and the moon, and the sun, and the stars. They are whispered to us in the rustling of the winds in the leaves and branches of the trees. They are repeated, like a metronome, with every step we take as our feet tap the ground. They can even be in the words of any other person's posts on websites like facebook. So do not close your mind and your heart every time you hear an opinionated beginning. Who knows what that person has gone through, who they were before and who they have now become. Just remember to always listen to your own intuition, and question everything. The questions are more important than the answers, anyway.

My Thoughts On Expectations

Do you ever have expectations for things to happen in your life, but then get upset when things don't happen that way?

Think back to before things occurred, in any situation. Did you imagine what you wanted playing out in your head, or did you simply not bother because you were lazy, and thought everything would just manifest itself? See, the problem with this mindset is not the idea of things manifesting for you, in fact that is actually quite a wonderful system to implement into your life. No, the problem is EXPECTATIONS.

The problem is that you did not do the work, you did not imagine the life you wanted, and yet you expected everything to turn out in a way that you wanted. But how can those things occur when you haven't even thought of them yet? By creating the life you want INSIDE your mind and heart, these things will manifest on the OUTSIDE.

But don't get upset when things don't turn out "perfectly." What's life without a little unpredictability?