My heart feels like a summer storm
boiling and toiling and ripping away the dead houses of the lost
and my mind becomes clear, if only for a moment, to listen in silence to the
thunder and lightening of love without condition

You ask me to change; I tell you only you can change yourself.
You speak to me in ways that I do not understand -- yet
I understand that only I can change myself.

My body shifts and vibrates and moves like a creature underwater
feeling out the frequencies of everything around me
do you remember that you are energy responding to energy?

You can be a stagnant slug or
a catalyst for a paradigm shift.

The choice always has been in your hands.
But do you know how to use them?
Sometimes we walk so long down our paths that we forget how we came
to be the way we are.

We lose the sense of conscious action when we no longer consciously
choose our response.
So what are you fighting for, if you are not fighting for freedom?
I will hold your hand but only you can find your heart again.

I believe in You - yes, you!
You sparkling sunshine of the morning milky way.
The serpent of light is becoming our reality.
Where do you find
you truly align?

From one perspective the whole world seems to be going mad -

yet madness is sincerely limited by it's own definition. 

We are, quite frankly, losing our minds... 

or at least the attachment that came with the association of "self" with "mind" --

For you see we are not our minds; our minds are but a tool on the journey of self-discovery.

We are incredibly bright if we do not cling and clutch at all we see.

We truly can do anything with the light that lives in us All.

I have faith in every One of us to see this long road through to the end.

Every destination is the beginning of a new journey.

I'll be seeing you on the rainbow bridge, my love.

I never wrote for you.
Every day I wrote, I wrote because I had to, because nothing else in this world could bring me to the place of calm solitude, the place that I am so desirous for, this I only found within myself. So I wrote and I wrote, until my hands were sore and my neck was stiff and my eyes were bleary and tired and all I could crave was the sweetness of slumber but oh how my soul sang in those last moments! It was as if the Divine had lifted the darkness from my wings, so fleetingly, yet I desperately clung to what I was haunted most by...
I am hoping that you will find the truth in these words. Yet I will say it again - I never wrote for you. Your comprehension of these ideas means only a sliver of anything to me, but these thoughts are not expressed in arrogance and so I hope you understand why this is my expression of love.
But I will say it again: I never wrote for you.

You are the Creator.

This life that you are living, this moment, this experience would not exist if you were not there to be conscious of it.
Whatever thought or emotion or fleeting experience passes through your mind is fine. No, really. It's perfectly okay. Accept whatever it is, don't make a judgement or a ruling,
and move on. Take the leap.
Let the flow of your true Self catch you on your way as you fall.
The truth is that whatever you feel bleak about really IS bottomless pit of blackness, and no amount of worrying will change this until YOU change your perspective.
It is up to You. It has always been up to You. No one has ever had control over your life but you!
You need to learn to create your experience while giving others the space and freedom to create their own. In this way the co-dependancy of 3rd density relationships will cease to be, and these imbalanced ways will be no longer on your planet.
I have spoken. I AM. Let love and light shine through your heart every moment.
We are one.

Do you remember being a Wanderer? Do you remember being a Watcher? This one is for the cosmic infinite soul...WAKE UP!

I felt the great seeing feeling coming through my body, and I knew that I should write for my Higher Soul was indeed transferring information through my system..
What I saw was a luminous being in the realm of Light. I knew her to be my true Self. Joy, peace, love, all abundance of the highest good flowed eternally - I became a caretaker, a Watcher in our terms..One that watches over the the river of Life. Our spirits gave the glow of awareness to our new world - there were other beings, our Kind, those like us, created in the form that placed our spirit manifest into the mold of a human-being..We, as the Watchers over life, guided these beings silently, gently, through the earth spirit we had merged with, and showed the humans the ways of Oneness - there were Mamas and Papas - perhaps Elders, of the tribes (the people had formed into tribes/communities after many cycles) they taught the ways, they were the Great Rememberers as well as the Teachers..I incarnated..I saw, we in the higher realms saw, there was so much to be done in this newly magnificent creation. We wanted our own experiences - and so we incarnated into flesh in our beautiful worlds..I had multiple lives where my skin was blue. (This I believe was in Lyran and Sirian worlds) After so many lives I somehow became recognized, by a great council of some sort, they knew me as an ancient being from a universe that we are no longer aware of consciously..I was Named, although I don't remember anymore..I was chosen for a mission..I went throughout the galaxy, helping the seeded beings of the worlds to realize their luminosity. I incarnated again and again, giving the secrets to the Rememberers of every age when the truth seemed to be slipping away; I saw that there were beings who were once my family, the tribe of my soul, who had chosen to separate from the Light - I joined with the Family of Light and we saw that the mission to be fulfilled would take many steps and players in the right parts, and many of us stepped up and volunteered to be world-bridgers, coming back as warriors to fulfill the great Unifying Age.
I lost my memories, as did all of us...
I was born in Draco, during a cycle where the darkness ruled so densely and my memories of Light took very long to recover, as I had become consumed for the first part of this life in the dark ways of the authorities.. Something became illuminated, I saw many connections being made and a group of Ascended Masters who nearly everyone in (the Draco) world had forgotten about began to guide me, and I eventually made my way to the Pleiades and learned of my origins, although these memories of course were lost again to be remembered in this lifetime...
I also incarnated in a parallel world somewhere in this huge omniverse, as well as in the inner earth of the planet Gaia who is our earth Mother..I also ascended to the Pleiades in these lifetimes..
After these experiences I spent much time travelling the galaxy (milky way) who is soon to become the Serpent of Light, as well as surrounding galaxies - in one particular being the Andromedan galaxy, where I heard the call to come back to incarnate in this lifetime - another part of my Oversoul, who is the Higher Self, also went to Sirius B and reunited with lost members of my Star family..they are also working on clearing the damage caused by certain incidents in Atlantis, at least I sense that I am being guided by my Self from this loop in the earth's energies...
If you read this all with a clear and open mind, I truly thank you and commend you. May the Light that is within You shine upon every shadow of the day.

How I am soothed by you
Oh, skies of grey.
You are not flashy like the brilliance of a blue and sunny day.
You do not ask for anything of me but to simply be.
You do not warm me with light but you cover me in the soft hands of the clouds,
do not speak, child, you whisper to me,
do not toil in your breathing as you lay in bed half dreaming.

Last night the wind came into my body as I slept,
and my system came alive with feeling as my mind stopped thinking;
although I woke up in the middle of the darkness and looked out,
as if I knew I would be seeing light.
So I closed my eyes and waited for the night to break,
leaving this place as the wind pulled me in my dreamer's curiousity.

Holding so tight that I forgot what I was clinging to
then I thought I saw a face I knew
beyond the wall of fog that keeps me here in this clouded state
yet in relinquishing control I receive the guidance I have strived for
 And nothing is as it seems,
the waking world is like a dream
compared to where I come from.
And yet I lost my memories
becoming engulfed in the heavy waves of misery
but then a light unfolded and my heart expanded
and something dormant became awakened.
My heart cries out for respite,
yet who can help me but myself?
Only in opening myself will I be able to let in the warm guidance of divine's love.
I am willing.
I am open.
My heart is beating faster and faster-
sometimes I lose the voice I never knew I had
but now I know that I am gaining back the expression of Truth
that is waiting just beyond the veil to cleanse my spirit
and once more I shall be whole.

Old emotional shells falling away like
scaled skin when I was a serpent,
a Goddess,
I am becoming aware of the totality of my Self
every moment brings me further along this journey
this path that I have chosen to create and and follow through,
follow You, don't follow me,
never follow anyone if they tell you their love is not for free.
Let your worries be naught,
have you learned anything from what you have taught yourself?
The angels are calling to me,
in my ears I hear the sounds of higher frequencies..
Are you willing to complete this mission you have set out to do,
are you willing to let go of the concept of "you"?

Can you feel the distant wind whirling through space
the angels singing as tears fall from your face
they are bringing a message of peace
of light
joy and bliss
there is no greater love than this
And yet still I stand in this watery abyss
forgetting that I once was missed
Remembering the river that moves us
and moving with her,
for we cannot do anything but live, if we choose life.
Yet, have you chosen life?
I still feel so much angry strife
emanating from the places that still are unexposed
dark and cold
those places and spaces that you thought were empty
forgot that this is filled with light beyond
what you can see with eyes made out of matter

Now is all there is

Skin
and softness and itches and twitches
and hugs
and blinking out tears
from silvery blue eyes like water frozen in time
my voice crying from within
let yourself be free!
release and surrender to the Truth that lives in You
in cosmic heart in Oneness with All...
Tastes like the universe is dancing in my mouth
like stars ricocheting across endless space
And a great rift opens up and we all fall through the emptiness
but look
where we have come out on the other side
it appears nothing is as it appears to be...
as we grow, we learn
and our eyes will learn to see...

Are you listening to the stillness

the silence in the gaps between 

the deafening last roars of the defeat of the proud and sick

Opening windows on a spring morning

the warm air pools in and flows through 

and fills my body with the whispers of the earth who calls to me in dreaming

I remember my ancient past, 

the people would live in these tunnels and the Spirit Ones who live beyond 

together

as One we have been manifesting the full intent of the Heart of Gaia

and in this sacred space there is no place for anything but Divine Light

unconditional Love

transcendence of "self"

and abundance of joy and bliss.

When I awoke,
yesterday's world fell away.
I stepped into the bright of day and the sun shined
and we all reflected back to her the light that makes us Whole
Let us find each other in the grass
In the valleys, fields and hills.
Let us sing to the morning air and find one another there
sitting by a riverside, blowing
smoke like ringlets up into the wind
The flower moon of a night before
flows through our bodies and we remember
nothing yet everything...
something was lost, yet we are here now?
sometimes I am so befuddled by what happens day to day.
We strive for nothingness and then we lose our way.
Look inside!
That is where illuminations of the mysteries reside.
I have journeyed across space and time
only to find that everywhere I thought was empty is filled with sacred space
and in any other place I can call home!
What must dissappear is the the ego's fear,
and the body's senseless longings for another kind of something,
something different perhaps or more alluring.
But you will never be satisfied unless you look deep inside
the cries of your heart call out from the emanations that beam into you,
the Soul.
The question is,
what are you creating, and what are you destroying?
The question is, where
does your consciousness flow?~

Unifying, self existing, world-bridging...

Corruption of word,
murder, is human sacrifice.
Do you suppose this is helping anything,
by allowing this to continue?
Your ego has lost,
and your heart has found a sun
rising up from within you
everything is new
so why take the negativity with you?
it's old and stale and dead.
leap from your heart and remember
that love will always catch you when you fall.
The earth is our mother and our hearts are ONE,
The Cosmic Heart of Divine.

sacred eating....hmmm...

Today I was able to create some delicious banana chocolate ice cream, made out of simply a banana, some cacao powder, and a bit of agave nectar. it is very yummy. I mixed the cacao and agave nectar in a bowl until it turned into a powdery-pasty texture, then put in a banana and mashed it up with the spoon, stirring it in gradually. Making raw recipes is really quite easy, if you are creative with resources :)
I also made some nori wraps with avocado and kamut.
And let us thank Gaia, the Earth Mother, for giving us this food.
Namaste <3

With the Goddess planet of beauty falling into the laps of the Twins,
I see a fiery storm beginning to build..
She speaks her truth, loudly, clearly, with purpose,
and there is no One who can defy her.
And as her brother, the fiery Mars, makes his way through the lands of the Virgin,
an odd alliance begins to form in our hearts.
I've seen it beginning to boil, since the start of this cycle,
and the pair of them will not quite down
will not let the fires be put out by any except
the cooling waters of Neptune
as the Age of Aquarius flows in,
we will see just how complacent everybody has been.
And I will walk with you to where Golden Light and Love
flows freely,
like the wind.

A day, like any other day
the sun is shining
the air is breezy,
I ask you is is cold? I would say no,
but you know yourself best.
I'm saying whatever flows from these hands that type,
so writing is a stream of consciousness.