If there's anything I'm learning, it's that no mistake is too big to repair. And the only thing that causes stress is not being in the present.
I've been very strong in my intention to eat all raw. I know it's going to help me to be stronger in every way. In addition to this, I'm also going to start taking tai chi and kick boxing classes soon.
My body is remembering a lot that I cannot form into words right now. It's as if I'm starting from square one. And there's nowhere to go but into that vastness, infinity.
I have been reading one chapter of the Tao every day.
I'm here. And things never, ever happen as you expect them too. You can't try to manifest. What we can do is intend, if we have the energy.

And in my mind I sit
balanced at the tip-top 
of an evergreen pine
surrounded by glowy whiteness

And my form is pure yellow light
fading into the infinite whiteness

I
am nothing.
only
particles of awareness
scattered out 
into eternity.

This 
is what death feels like.
release of surrender. 

This is what I resolve to be.